The reason I don’t drink

When I entered Gallaudet I was ready to be a rebel

But the problem was that everyone there was drinking and if I drank I would be a follower and not a rebel

So I said drink me never

But what really nailed me was seeing my first drunk person

I was walking down the hall in Krug Hall late one night and saw a boy lurching toward the water fountain and missing

Let us call him Steve because he looked like a Steve to me

Not a big cowboy Steve but a little runt kind of Steve

So this Steve had his cheek on the wall his eyes gone and there was no one around

I decided to help him by pulling him to front of the fountain

But his head dropped on the eew

I held his head up so the water could get into his mouth and he seemed to drink some

Then Steve struggled up and seemed to be leaning toward the bathroom

I tried asking him if he wanted bathroom but it was no good

I held his shoulders from behind and steered him into the bathroom

Urinal or stall

Steve was swaying so I couldn’t be sure which he wanted

He seemed more inclined to go to the urinals so I steered him there

Wanting to give him privacy I stepped back and let go of his shoulders

His head hit the wall and he peed in his pants

So much for that

But I decided Steve had to have his hands washed if nothing else and I steered him to one of the sinks

He leaned over it and things things CHUNKS began coming out of his mouth

I didn’t know what to do

I looked around but there was no one to help me

I began pounding Steve’s back

The chunks kept coming out and I had to move poor Steve to another sink

One and a half sinks of chunks

Me be like that

Never

John Lee Clark, a deaf-blind writer from Minnesota, has appeared in many
publications, including The Chronicle of Higher Education, The Hollins
Critic, Poetry, and The Seneca Review. He is currently a Beyond the Pure
Writing Fellow and is holding another fellowship at the Loft Literary
Center. His chapbook of poems is Suddenly Slow and he edited the anthology
Deaf American Poetry, both available at his Web site:
http://www.johnleeclark.com.